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Jan. 24th, 2004 11:25 pmMe? Over sensitive and insecure? Me, over emotional?...After our little disagreement at home, I had drawn up a 'computer time' rota for the family and it was my turn this evening. I was really looking forward to my 'legitimate' and therefore undisturbed stint and made the mistake of reading LJ entries and comments re; the EOAS tagboard and ended up feeling thoroughly miserable and wretched. Not through anyone's fault I hasten to add, I just got it into my perverse head that all the recent times that people referred to as being 'uncomfortable' or their feeling unwelcome or whatever, seemed to be when I was on, whether as Sildil,or anyone else.
By the time I got onto EOAS, (reluctantly, and only because of Geek and Estelle);
a) I'm surprised the computer keyboard hadn't short circuited because of my stupid crying, and b)I was seriously thinking of hitting the Eau de Mordor again, in spite of promises to Morgana. Fortunately the real strength of the EAOS tagboard is it's friendship and welcome and I left much, much later feeling a lot better.
One thing did strike me however was that people don't like change, and if they are very critical and make you feel as though there was this 'golden age' that used to be, it can make a relative newcomer feel unwelcome and unwanted and feel that they are the one who has spoilt things for everyone else, whether it is true or not.
Sorry to 'rant' a bit, I felt I needed to, but loads of thanks and hugs to everyone on the board tonight for making me feel Ok.
By the time I got onto EOAS, (reluctantly, and only because of Geek and Estelle);
a) I'm surprised the computer keyboard hadn't short circuited because of my stupid crying, and b)I was seriously thinking of hitting the Eau de Mordor again, in spite of promises to Morgana. Fortunately the real strength of the EAOS tagboard is it's friendship and welcome and I left much, much later feeling a lot better.
One thing did strike me however was that people don't like change, and if they are very critical and make you feel as though there was this 'golden age' that used to be, it can make a relative newcomer feel unwelcome and unwanted and feel that they are the one who has spoilt things for everyone else, whether it is true or not.
Sorry to 'rant' a bit, I felt I needed to, but loads of thanks and hugs to everyone on the board tonight for making me feel Ok.
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Date: 2004-01-24 05:51 pm (UTC)Estelle
Bounds onto Sildils LJ and takes up space
Date: 2004-01-24 06:06 pm (UTC)I just finished commenting on Estelle's journal (another brave, wack-o knowing soul) that the comment(s) about tagboard were not directed at anyone in particular and that the person (or persons) just felt kinda left out and were not sure about venturing in with a new crowd (think of it as they are like a newbie again and they have to get the courage to de-lurk all over again).
That being said (boy am I in a serious comment mood or what?) I am going to snoop around other LJ’s and then possibly update my own.
Krit - the weirdest, coat rack molesting wack-o in this end of Canada, go me!
Coat Hangers!
Date: 2004-01-25 02:13 am (UTC)I agree with your comments about lurking and non-lurking...don't be a lurker though....I felt really fed up yesterday early on but was really, really, really glad that I did come in and chat, it made me feel much better. Basically the tagboard is a very, very friendly place.
See you there!